driving to newbury park

i am possessed by a
strict unattraction to
the billboards that vandalize
my view of the sky from the
freeway

avoidant of
everything i see on
one

i stare as i listen to classical music like
bukowski would have

i reference bukowski
in my head
like a wannabe beatnik

i contemplate the etiology of
the word
wannabe

i arrive at no answer just
keep driving

until i arrive at
the night's traffic

billboards are derogatory
wannabe is informal and derogatory
i do not wannabe driving